lisacunningham's Journal

LIFE IS GREAT........
HEY YOU GUYS, I KNOW ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I LAST MADE AN ENTRY BUT LIFE HAS JUST BEEN SO BUSY.
I AM NOW WORKING FULL TIME, I FINALLY LANDED MYSELF A JOB, WHICH I TOTALLY LOVE. I WORK FOR NOEL LEEMING AS A SALES CONSULTANT. I SOOOO LOVE WORKING. I HAVE A WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY OFF AND WORK EVERY OTHER DAY. ITS BEEN HARD BEING AWAY FROM THE KIDS SO MUCH BUT THEY LOVE THE BENEFITS OF MUMMY WORKING.
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE IS FINALLY FALLING INTO PLACE AND LIFE IS GOOD. I WENT TO AUCKLAND LAST WEEK FOR BUSINESS. HAD A COURSE WHICH I HAD TO COMPLETE WHICH WAS REALLY COOL. I MET SOME REALLY COOL CHICKS THAT I NOW AM IN CONTACT WITH ON A REGULAR BASIS. THEY ALSO WORK FOR NOEL LEEMINGS IN OTHER PARTS OF THE COUNTRY SO WE EMAIL AND FAX EACH OTHER REGULARY. WE ALSO STAYED IN A VERY FLASH HOTEL WHERE EVERYTHING WAS PAID FOR WHICH WAS VERY VERY COOL. WE WENT TO THE SKY CITY CASINO MOST NIGHTS JUST TO HAVE A LOOK, I DID HAVE A LITTLE FLUTTER BUT LOST IT ALL SO I GAVE UP!
THE KIDS ARE BOTH GOOD. SAM IS LOVING SCHOOL AND DOING VERY WELL. HE IS READING AND SPELLING AT A 9 AND A HALF YEAR OLDS LEVEL WHICH IS VERY COOL AND HES STILL PLAYING RUGBY. NOT LONG AND THE SEASON WILL BE OVER. SUMMER IS ON ITS WAY, THANK GOD.
TYLER IS GOOD, HES TOTALLY LOVING DAYCARE, HE GOES 3 DAYS A WEEK FOR THE WHOLE DAY AND HES LEARNING SO MUCH, HES COUNTING AND SAYING THE ALPHABET AND SPELLING HIS OWN NAME WHICH IM SO PROUD OF. HES STILL A LITTLE MONSTER BUT I LOVE IT!
CRAIG IS STILL AT A1 SALVAGE BUT IS CURRENTLY LOOKING FOR ANOTHER JOB, NOW THAT IM WORKING FULL TIME NOW , THERE IS JUST NO NEED FOR HIM TO BE BUSTING HIS ARSE FOR NOTHING. HES OUT ALL THE TIME AND THE KIDS ARE REALLY MISSING HIM SO ITS TIME TO MOVE ON TO SOMETHING WITH BETTER HOURS. FINGERS CROSSED WE FIND SOMETHING SOON.
WELL THATS ABOUT ALL I HAVE TO REPORT IN ABOUT. WILL ADD ANOTHER ENTRY SOON. TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE UNTIL NEXT TIME. XX

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: WILL YOUNG, EVERGREEN

busy, busy, busy
Well its been a while since I've updated my journal and I suppose I can say a lot has happened.
Firstly I finally got a job! It was the weirdest thing that has happened to me yet. I went in to pay my HP about a month ago when Jason (whom I know really well) asked me if I would be interested working there, I said sure thinking nothing of it. I paid my bill and went home. Jason rang me about an hour later to tell me that I had an interview on Sunday with the boss and that him and 2 other staff members had recommended me for the position. I was so stoked! I really couldnt believe my luck. So anyway I went to the interview and I felt really comfortable, the whole thing just seemed to fly by and after an hour I left feeling pretty confident. The boss said he would contact me in a couple of days to give me his decision. Well the couple of days roled by and he rang, unfortunately I had missed out but he wanted to keep my name on the books for future positions since he thought I did so well in the interview. I was pretty guttered but hey what could I do. Then a few days after that I received another call from the boss and he asked if I was still interested in the position cause the girl they decided on fell through, I said OMG Yes and that afternoon I went up and signed my contract.
I started nearly two weeks ago now and I totally love the job. I am a sales consultant and loving it! At times it can become very stressful and I wish I wasnt there but then you have a good sale or a really nice customer and you soon forget the negative. It feels so good to finally be back in the work force and to be independent again. The only downfall to this position is that I have to work weekends which I totally hate cause I miss out on so much with the kids but I suppose this is the choice you have to make if you want to go out and work. I do get to have Wednesday and Thursday off which is kinda cool cause its cheaper on the wallet when it comes to paying childcare and I also get to go on school trips with Sam.
The kids have taken the whole 'Mum working' thing really well, better than what I ever expected. Im so proud of them both. I think they are starting to realise the benefits of me working though, since I brought them a PS2 on the weekend....lol
Everyone in my family are great. Craig is still working really hard and loving his job. Sam is doing great at rugby and school. He had a great 8th birthday and got totally spoilt! and as for Tyler well he is the same old nutty child...lol
Another great thing happened, my girlfriend Jacqui had her baby on tuesday 4th June, little Lukas was born at 3.10 weighing in at 7 pound 4 ounces and a big head of hair! I went to the hospital yesterday to see them all and have a big cuddle, hes so gorgeous...makes me wanna have more....that thought soon left my mind as soon as I got home to my fighting kids...lol
Anyway just thought I'd update , I better fly , gotta get the kids from school and kindy. Take care and be safe until my next entry. Love Lisa xx

Current Mood: busy
Current Music: Blue- Fly By

still alive and kicking...
just wanted to add an entry to say im still alive and kicking, just havent had time or the energy to come on and add a proper entry.
kids have been on holiday and i have been busy with them and this week they returned to school so i have been busy with that. then on top of all that i have been unwell so i just havent felt like doing anything!
will add an entry sometime soon.
take care, be safe xx

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: The Calling- Wherever you go

Just an entry......
Well I thought I'd better come on and add another entry since its been a couple of weeks.
Nothing very interesting has been happening in my world, just been really busy with the kids lately.
Sam has his last game of tee ball tomorrow, then we basically go straight back into rugby so there is no such thing as a nice sleep in on a saturday morning like I hoped. We have his offical weigh-in's next saturday so I have to try and get him down 2kg otherwise he will be overweight for his grade. I hate installing in my kids that you have to be a certain size to do things in life, especially at such a young age, it really takes the fun and the spirit that they have away from the whole rugby scene, its even worse when its starting at 7 years old and hes worried about weighing in at the right weight. Sad but true.
Ive really enjoyed coaching Sam's teeball team this year but i will be glad to leave all the stress that comes along with it (mainly the over protective parents).
Tyler has really settled into kindy now, he is loving it, I still havent had one painting from him yet, but im sure i will get one before he starts school...lol
I took him in today to get his hair cut, he looks so gorgeous now, hes got these awesome spikes, its so different to what he had (an undercut). He looks so much older. Its funny I get so many comments on how cute he is, and yet looks can be so deceiving, he is one handful of a kid, he drives me around the bend most day, dont get me wrong I love him to bits and pieces but he is a real little dennis the menace....I suppose im not used to it, since Sam was such a go with the flow kinda kid, that didnt really back chat, but with tyler, well he swears, he can pack one hell of a tantrum and he tells you to shut up!! pleasant young man isnt he, not so cute now i bet!! lol
Nothing interesting has been happening in my life so I really havent got anything else to say so take care and be safe until my next entry...xxx

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Crowded House - Mean to me

2 years today...........
It's a very important day for me, I suppose you could say its a achievement. Two years ago today I was diagnosed with my leukemia. Its so scary to think that I have come so far in such a short time. I have gone from having the world at my feet to fighting for my life and back to having the world at my feet, I suppose you could say I've come full circle but it's certainly a circle that I dont want to have to go around again.
I remember how scared I was this time 2 years ago, I remember thinking how I wasnt going to see my kids grow into the men that I so want them to be, I remember thinking that there are so many things that I have'nt achieved yet, emotionally and physically, and here I am now two years later, healthy, happy and enjoying all the things I thought I would never get to see and enjoy.
I know I still have a little bit of a road ahead but I'm just happy to have made it this far, relapse will always be in the back of my mind but while I'm able to get up and be healthy every morning , then I will and I will make the most of each beautiful day I have. Its nice to finally see that the road has less turns, twists, and even less bumps.
I suppose today is to remind me about why I'm here, I was kept on this earth for a reason, I still dont really know what that reason is but I know it will become clearer as the years go by.
Anyway I just needed to write down how I was feeling and how proud I am to still be here, and how a little bit of positive attitude can take you a long way in life.
Take care and be safe xxx

Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Its my life - Bon Jovi

GOOD NEWS ...............
I HAD THE BEST NEWS TODAY, I WENT TO SEE MY SPECIALIST PAUL, IT WAS A ROUTINE CHECK, BUT HE GAVE ME THE COOLEST NEWS...HE SAID THAT AFTER THE NEXT COURSE OF ATRA (IN APRIL) I WILL BE FINISHED!! WHICH MEANS NO MORE PILLS, NO MORE SPECIALIST VISITS, NO MORE BONE MARROWS, NO MORE TRIPS TO PALMY AND NO MORE BLOOD TESTS!!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED.
I WILL BE ABLE TO CLOSE THIS WHOLE CHAPTER OF MY LIFE AND LOOK FORWARD TO A NICE HEALTHY LIFE. I KNOW THAT IT CAN STILL COME BACK BUT IM NOT GOING TO WORRY MYSELF WITH THAT NEGATIVE THOUGHT, IM GONNA STAY NICE AND POSITIVE AND PRAY THAT IT NEVER EVER COMES BACK.
DR HARPER HAD BAD NEWS TOO, NOT ABOUT MY HEALTH BUT THAT HE WAS GOING TO BE LEAVING PALMY HOSPITAL TO GO AND WORK IN AUCKLAND, I WAS ACTUALLY REALLY UPSET ABOUT THAT, HE HAS BEEN SUCH AN IMPORTANT PART OF MY LIFE OVER THE LAST 2 AND A HALF YEARS, HE HAS BEEN THERE TO GUIDE ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AND TO LECTURE ME WHEN I NEEDED IT...WITHOUT HIS CONSTANT SUPPORT I DONT THINK I WOULD BE HERE TODAY, HE MADE ME SEE THAT IF I DIDNT HAVE TREATMENT THAT I WOULD HAVE DIED, I TRUSTED AND BELIEVED HIM SO I LISTENED, AND IM SO GLAD THAT I DID!! IM REALLY GONNA MISS HIM, HE MEANS A LOT TO ME. I WISH HIM ALL THE BEST AND I THANK HIM FOR EVERYTHING HE DID FOR ME.
HES AN AMAZING MAN!!!!!
ANYWAY I HAD TO SHARE MY GREAT NEWS, TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE UNTIL MY NEXT ENTRY XX

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: CHRISSY HYNES - IM WALKIN ON SUNSHINE

YAY THE KIDS ARE BACK AT SCHOOL!!!!!
WELL FINALLY THE DAY HAS COME WHEN THE KIDS WENT BACK TO SCHOOL AND KINDY, I TELL YA ITS BEEN A LONG 6 WEEKS, AND DONT GET ME WRONG I LOVE MY KIDS VERY VERY MUCH BUT I WAS GLAD TO SEE THEM GO BACK TO SCHOOL...I FINALLY DONT HAVE TO LISTEN TO 'IM BORED' 'MUM IM HUNGRY' 'MUM WHAT CAN WE DO?' 'MUM I NEED MONEY''MUM I WANT.....', DONT GET ME WRONG WE HAD SOME REALLY GREAT TIMES THROUGH THE HOLIDAYS BUT ITS JUST SUCH A LONG TIME FOR KIDS TO BE ON HOLIDAY AND EVEN THEY COULDNT WAIT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL.
SAM WAS PACKED AND AT THE DOOR BY 8.15AM, HE WAS SO EAGER TOP GET TO SCHOOL EVEN I WAS SHOCKED, THEN AGAIN HE HAD MISSED ALL HIS FRIENDS SO MUCH HE COULDNT WAIT TO CATCH UP WITH THEM AND SEE IF THEY WERE ALL IN THE SAME CLASS, LUCKY MOST OF THEM WERE SO THAT MADE IT A LOT MORE FUN FOR HIM. IT WAS REALLY FUNNY CAUSE HE WAS MOST EXCITED ABOUT GETTIN HIS OWN DESK, NOW THAT HE IS A MIDDLE STUDENT HE GETS TO HAVE HIS VERY FIRST DESK, LAST YEAR THEY ALL SAT AT TABLES TOGETHER, SO IT WAS A BIG THING FOR HIM TO GET HIS OWN DESK, FUNNY WHAT MAKES A KID SO EXCITED, WISH I COULD BE THAT EASILY ENTERTAINED!! LOL
SO ANYWAY I LEFT SAM AT JUST AFTER 9AM, HE WAS HAPPY AND HE DIDNT NEED ME SO I WENT!! I WAS RATHER SHOCKED WHEN I PICKED HIM UP IN THE AFTERNOON AND I GOT HIS BOOK LIST AND SCHOOL FEES LIST, WOW THE WHOLE THING CAME TO $123 WHICH I WASNT EXPECTING, HIS BOOKS ALONE CAME TO $43.80, THAT WAS A HUGE SHOCK, MY POOR BUDGET WAS SO BLOWN OUT OF THE WATER BUT HEY WHAT CAN YOU DO, HE CANT NOT HAVE HIS SCHOOL BOOKS, SO NOW I HAVE TO WEAVE SOME MAGIC AND SEE WHAT I CAN COMPROMISE TO FIND THE MONEY FOR ALL HIS SCHOOL STUFF. THE JOYS OF SCHOOLING...LOL
TYLER STARTS BACK AT KINDY TODAY AS WELL SO THAT IS GONNA BE COOL, HE ISNT REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT BUT IM SURE ONCE WE HAVE BEEN THERE FOR A WHILE HE WILL CHANGE HIS MIND. (POSITIVE THINKING!!!)
I HAVE MY SPECIALIST APPOINTMENT TOMORROW WHICH IM A BIT NERVOUS ABOUT, I HAVE NO IDEA WHY BUT I JUST AM, I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING IS FINE BUT I SUPPOSE ITS JUST THE WHOLE HISTORY THING COMING BACK UP THAT SCARES ME AND MAKES ME NERVOUS. I HATE HAVING TO DO ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE WHOLE CANCER PART OF MY LIFE, IT JUST BRING BACK ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS I HAD TO GO THROUGH AND IT TAKES YOU BACK TO THINGS YOU WOULD SOONER FORGET THAN REMEMBER BUT ONE GOOD THING IS IM NEARLY AT THE END OF ALL OF THIS, THEN I WILL BE ABLE TO FULLY PUT IT BEHIND ME AND FORGET THAT I EVER DID HAVE CANCER....CANT WAIT FOR THAT DAY, UNFORTUNATELY THE SCARS AND THE INNER PAIN AND MEMORIES WILL ALWAYS BE THERE NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRY TO BLOCK IT OUT. BUT ANYWAY LETS FORGET THAT AND CARRY ON.....
I HAVE FINALLY DECIDED ON A COURSE TO STUDY, IM GOING TO DO TOURISM AND TRAVEL, I CANT WAIT TO START, IT SOUNDS SO COOOOOOOL , IM JUST SAVING AT THE MOMENT SO I CAN START BUT AS SOON AS I HAVE GATHERED ALL THE MONEY , NOTHING WILL BE ABLE TO HOLD ME BACK....LOOK OUT TOURISM AND TRAVEL HERE I COME!!!! LOL
NOTE TO ALLY!! ARE YOU PROUD OF ME OR WHAT, I FINALLY MADE A DECISION ON MY COURSE....YOUR HARD WORDS HAVE PAID OFF!!
WELL TIME TO GET TYLER READY FOR KINDY, TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE, UNTIL NEXT ENTRY XX

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: NICKLEBACK- HOW YOU REMIND ME

Freaky Night........
Wow last night was so cool...we had a really huge thunder storm, it was amazing.
I know this is'nt very exciting to anyone else that lives outside Kiwiland, but for us its rare and very exciting!!
The lightning was awesome it lit up the whole sky and the thunder just rumbled it was soooo cool, although the kids didnt think so. Tyler was petrified and Sam wasnt much happier.
I just keep reassuring them that we were fine, that nothing could happen to use cause we were safely inside. It didnt help that when they looked out the window you couldnt see the road.
Craig was out the front of the house helping people that were getting stuck in the middle of the road cause the water was too deep to get their cars through, he was out until just after midnight doing the same thing but in different areas of the town. I was very glad to see his wet face safely home when he did finely walk in the door, its an awful feeling knowing that your man is out in this horrible weather in situations that could turn out the be very dangerous, but I know he's extra careful and wouldnt risk his life to rescue a car!
The kids finally fell asleep just after 11pm, and when they woke up this morning and saw that there was no more rain and flooding they were happy and relieved.
Anyway on another note, I got all my hair cut off the other day, it looks sooooo cool, I'm so happy with it, Craig explained to his work mates as: 'It looks like Lisa has stood out in really strong winds and that is how the hair has stayed'...lol
He did confess that he really did like it, it was just so different to what i usually have.
I have had mixed reaction from everyone, some love it , some hate it, but I dont care cause I love it and thats all that matters!! I'm going back to get highlights put in just to give it a little bit more life...should look cool, I've decided on a bright reddish and a bright orangey colour. I'll update and tell you what its like!
My medication arrived yesterday which I was not looking forward to, I was really hoping it would get lost in the post or something (wishful thinking!) so I'm back on them and feeling like shit... the headaches are back and the body feels like shit...Oh well what am I, just have to grin and bare it I suppose.
Anyway I'd better go and organize my 5 boys. I have my 2 and my sisters 3 whilst she works.
So take care and be safe everyone. Until next time. xx

Current Mood: crappy
Current Music: Nickleback - How you remind me

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL, I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST FOR 2002, I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE GREAT HEALTH, A STRESS FREE YEAR , HAPPINESS AND BE SURROUNDED BY GREAT FRIENDS AND FAMILY.
I KNOW FOR ME ALL I CAN HOPE FOR IS ANOTHER GREAT YEAR FOR MY HEALTH, I HOPE FOR A CLEAN BILL OF HEALTH, WHICH WILL MAKE ME ANOTHER YEAR CLOSER TO FINISHING MY REMISSION PERIOD, AND ONCE AGAIN I MIGHT BE ABLE TO GET INSURANCE AND NOT BE TREATED LIKE IM THIS BIG FRAGILE THING THAT NEEDS TO BE CONSTANTLY REMINDED OF HOW PRECIOUS MY LIFE IS AND HOW MUCH MY BODY IS WORTH AND HOW I SHOULD REALLY LOOK AFTER IT NOW!! LOL
YOU KNOW ME THOUGH, I JUST ROLL MY EYES AND SMILE AND SAY OF COURSE I KNOW HOW IMPORTANT MY LIFE IS AND HOW MUCH MY BODY IS WORTH AS I LIGHT UP ANOTHER SMOKE....TO MY FATHERS DISGUST!!
I WANT ANOTHER WONDERFUL YEAR WITH MY KIDS AND HUBBY ,MY AWESOME FAMILY AND MY VERY SPECIAL FRIENDS... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!! :)
I HOPE THAT THIS YEAR WILL BE THE YEAR THAT THEY FIND A CURE FOR MY BESTFRIEND JO'S LEG, I WOULD LOVE TO SEE HER LIVE WITH NO PAIN AND THE STRENGTH TO DO EVERYTHING HER HEART DESIRES. SHE'S A TOUGH OLD DUCK BUT I KNOW THERE ARE THINGS SHE WISHES SHE COULD DO, SHE TRIES REALLY HARD TO ACHIEVE THESE THINGS AND I ALSO KNOW IF THEY FIND A CURE FOR HER NOTHING AND I MEAN NOTHING WILL HOLD HER BACK FROM DOING ALL THE THINGS SHES WANTED TO DO FOR SO LONG. I LOVE YOU JO AND I WILL SEND OUT ALL MY POSITIVE VIBES FOR THAT CURE WE ALL SO BADLY WANT THEM TO FIND FOR YOU.
I MUST JUST SAY THAT I FEEL VERY BLESSED TO HAVE JO COME INTO MY LIFE, SHE HAS TOUCHED ME IN A WAY THAT NO OTHER PERSON HAS, SHE IS MY SOULMATE AND I LOVE HER, SHE GIVES ME THE STRENGTH WHEN I FEEL LOW AND I KNOW I DO THE SAME FOR HER, WE BRING OUT THE BEST IN EACH OTHER AND I KNOW WE WILL ALWAYS BE FRIENDS. IF YOU ARE EVER LUCKY ENOUGH TO FIND A FRIENDSHIP LIKE JO AND I MAKE SURE YOU NEVER LET IT GO OR TAKE IT FOR GRANTED CAUSE IT IS SO PRECIOUS, AND I KNOW FOR JO AND I OUR FRIENDSHIP IS LIKE A FINE WINE IT GETS BETTER WITH AGE.
FOR ANOTHER FRIEND THAT I HAVE MADE IN 2001 , I WISH HIM ALL THE BEST AND I KNOW THAT HE WILL BE A STRONG ROOT IN MY LIFE, WE CONNECT ON A LEVEL THAT I THINK NOT A LOT OF PEOPLE CONNECT ON, HE UNDERSTANDS ME AND I UNDERSTAND HIM, HE IS MY DEAR FRIEND JAMES. HE IS DOING SO WELL NOW WITH HIS HEALTH, AND I KNOW IT CAN ONLY GET BETTER, HE HAS THE INNER STRENGTH TO GET THROUGH ANYTHING NOW. HE'S HIT THE GROUND AND HE IS NOW ON HIS WAY BACK UP. IM VERY PROUD OF YOU JAMES. KEEP IT UP.
TO EVERYONE ELSE, THANKS FOR READING MY JOURNAL AND I HOPE THAT YOU CONTINUE TO DO SO OVER 2002. I KNOW IT IS BORING AT TIMES BUT HEY THATS MY LIFE SOMETIMES BUT I WOULDNT CHANGE IT FOR WORLD!
UNTIL NEXT TIME TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE
LOVE LISA XX

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: IM WALKING ON SUNSHINE

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!
JUST THOUGHT I'D ADD AN ENTRY AND WISH EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A SAFE AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
CHRISTMAS IN THE CUNNINGHAM HOUSEHOLD WAS FUN BUT OVER VERY FAST, SAM LOVED HIS BIKE AND TYLER LOVED HIS TRAIN SET, AMONG ALL THE OTHER PRESSIES THAT WE GAVE THEM.
IT WAS A VERY DRAINING DAY WITH MEALS BEING AT DIFFERENT HOUSES. FIRSTLY IT WAS BREAKFAST AT DADS, THEN ONTO LUNCH AT CRAIG'S AUNTY'S HOUSE THEN FINALLY WE MANAGED TO MAKE IT HOME. IT WAS NICE TO SIT DOWN AND PUT OUR FEET UP AND RELAX.
I HATE TO SEE IT BUT IM SO GLAD THAT CHRSTMAS IS OVER, NOW I JUST HAVE TO SORT OUT TYLER'S BIRTHDAY......IT JUST NEVER ENDS!!
WELL I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A SAFE AND HAPPY NEW YEAR AND I WILL UPDATE SOON.
TAKE CARE AND BE SAFE XX

Current Mood: relieved
Current Music: GINGLE BELLS.....YAY I NO LONGER HAVE TO HEAR THIS..HEHE

Great kids........
Yesterday was a great day for me as a parent.
Firstly Tyler started Kindy, which was awesome, he loved it, which was rather surprising to me since hes so shy. He actually played well with all the kids and didnt do the whole "its mine" thing that he does at home. He shared and he cared...I actually thought to myself at one point 'is this my child, he being so nice?'. I was so proud of him, he just moved around the whole kindy play area, playing with different kids and chattin away, it was very exciting to see. He's got kindy again today and then he doesnt go back until after the christmas holidays which isnt for another 6 weeks, so thats going to be long and boring for him and his brother.
Now for Sam, he got his school report yesterday, I was pleasantly surprised to see how good it was, I knew that he was a good kid and he was focused and he would get a good report but this year he has had the teacher from hell, she has made his life a living hell this year so I wasnt expecting her to write anything nice about him or give him an encouragement, but to my surprise she was actually very nice.
Sam is reading above his age, he interacts well with adults and other kids, he shares and thinks about other kids feelings and he loves all sports, the only thing that we have to work on is his maths, as hes struggling a little bit with that but in time I'm sure he will pick it up. Maths is confusing until you get the hang of it, and hey hes only 7 so im sure next year it will make more sense to him.
Sam was also proud to see that next year he's in Room 1 with a lot of his other friends and they have a great teacher Mrs Affleck.
I am so proud of him, he's had such a tough year with his unkind and uncaring teacher, I think he handled the whole year with his head held high and with confidence, so what more could I ask for, the excellent report was just the icing on the cake!

Great News...........
I went down to Palmy North on Wednesday for my bone marrow test and to my surprise I was told that it was my last one. I was so thrilled, I couldnt have asked for a nicer christmas present. Dr Harper said that since I had been in a healthy remission for just over a year now and there was no signs of the leukemia coming back so there was no reason to continue doing the bone marrow tests. We are just going to continue with the bloods and the medications so I am so happy with that!!
This bone marrow test that I just had would have had to have been the most painful one, its now friday and Im still really sore, I was finding it really hard to pick Tyler up which has never happened before, so much for the lucky last one not being so painful..lol.
Craig stayed in the room while I got the test done and he couldnt believe how much I was swearing and cursing. I know that I usually do but this time it was more than usual, even my doctor commented which is really embarrassing since I dont remember a thing. Apparently I was swearing my head off and trying to hit the doctor away, lucky I have a really understanding doctor who is used to this kind of behavior under this drug. All i can be thankful for is that was the last one I have to have for a very long time, if ever again.
Its really hard to stay positive and think that I will never have to go through all of that trauma again but to be honest I can never rule it out, I have to stay aware of myself and remember that there will always be a possibility that it could come back but in order to stay sane I have to try and block that thought out and try and stay positive, I admit some days are harder than others, but with the help of a loving husband, kids, family and amazingly great friends, it makes it that little bit easier to deal with.
I'm still in contact with my online friend who was diagnosed with cancer, I would just like to report that he is doing great, it has been a really testing time for him but with the help of all his friends and family and some strangers he is making it through it. Some days have been very testing for him where he feels that he cant go on and life is totally against him but thats when I have tried to be there for him to convince him otherwise. Its great that I can finally speak with someone who understands where I have been and in time they are going to be too, which is on the other side of cancer. The survivors side. Who knows how long we will survive or weather it comes back to bite us on the butt but while we are on the good side of cancer we will live our lives like there is no tomorrow, love for today and hope that tomorrow can bring us as much happiness as yesterday did. What more could we want? We all have to remember that as long as we are breathing we are having a good day, without that we are not existing.
Anyway Craig got a new job yesterday, he starts in a week from today, hes very excited, hes got to go and get a special license for the job which is bloody expensive but well worth its cost. Hes going to be a tow truck driver for A1 salvage here in Napier/Hastings. Its so good to see him so excited about something other the fire service. I know he will enjoy this job and he will do it well. The bonus for the kids and I is that he will come home in happy moods again instead of grumpy moods that hes been coming home in while working in his current job!
Anyway I'd better go and get my man some lunch, he'll be home in 10 mins.
Take care and be safe xx

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Atomic Kitten- Eternal Flame

My sweet and dear friend Sarah...............
What a cool week it has been, I was so excited about seeing my oldest and dearest friend Sarah after two long years that I had to come and add it to my journal.
Sarah and I go way back, we met at Intermediate when we were about 11 years old and have been great friends ever since.
We went right through high school together and when we left we still managed to keep in contact even after she left Napier to go and live in Wellington. We never saw each other very often but when we did it was always very cool and exciting, we would just spent hours chattin and catching up on all the gossip.
Then Sarah got the travel bug and decided to go and explore the world, she left when Tyler was 1 week old to go and live in London and I didn't see her again until my wedding day which was just over two years ago. It was hard cause since her last visit home we actually got really close again so it was hard to say goodbye after the wedding and ever since then I have missed her a lot.
Sam and Sarah managed to strike up a really close bond which was so cool for me. He even asked if he could call her Aunty Sarah, I was shocked but very happy. Its funny cause he always would ask where in the world his Aunty Sarah was if we hadn't gotten a email in a while, I just said, she could be anywhere, your guess is as good as mine....lol
So anyway, Sarah turned up on my doorstep yesterday, I was so shocked and happy I couldn't believe my eyes, she was standing in front of me, it was such an amazing feeling, it was so great to finally give her that great big hug that I had been dying to give her in so long.
So yesterday afternoon we spent the afternoon and early evening together catching up and looking at all her amazing photos of all the great places she has visited. Sam was so happy to see her again and couldnt get enough of her...poor Aunty Sarah....lol
We spent the most of the day today together as well just enjoying each others company, it has been great...Im so pleased she is home and safe.
Sarah is only here for a week so I know I will try and make the most of our time together, although this time she is only going back to Wellington to live which is awesome cause now at least she's at a distance that I can afford to visit!!! But for how long, thats anyones guess, shes bound to get itching feet and head off to some other part of the world like India!!
Anyway I just wanted to share that cool news with everyone, will be back to update again soon.
Until next time take care and be safe.

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Blue-Close

The Robbie Williams Concert......
Well where do I start.....firstly I must say that the concert was better than I ever imagined it would be.
We arrived in Wellington at about 3.30pm so we thought we'd full in a bit of time by going to Te Papa and having a look around there, wow... that was awesome, Craig and I thought we might take the kids back at Christmas time, Sam would love it there, it was so interesting and also fun. I wish we had had more time but we needed to go and find parking and food for dinner before the concert.
On the way to find parking we grabbed some McD's and took it with us and ate in the car once we had parked up for the nite, Craig and I were pissed off that we had to pay $15 for parking but hey it had to be done otherwise we would have had to of walked 30 mins just to get to the stadium, at least this way we were just across.
The weather was cold and very, very , very windy...then again what else did we expect from Wellington. We sat for 2 hours in the wind and cold waiting for the gates to open then we sat for another 2 hours waiting for the concert to start.
The opening band for Robbie was ZED which is a kiwi band, they are great, I must admit they were better than I thought they would be, they really got the crowd going and I'm proud to say they are a kiwi band which I'm sure is going to go along way.
At 8.15pm we heard the music to Let me Entertain you start and then there he was, strutting his stuff on our stage..OMG I didnt know weather to scream or cry ....I decided on the screaming option..lol
He was amazing on stage, he sounded and looked great and he was soooo funny. He told the media to get fucked, said he was going to fuck posh spice so he could say hes done them all and he was really getting into one chick in thre front row about her showing her breasts to him in a ballad, he was saying he didnt want to get an erection in front of 46,000 ppl but she was more than welcome to do it in all of the other songs, it was so funny!!
Robbie rocked on stage for around and hour and a half, the time just flew by and before we knew it, it was all over. He promised he would be back and so will I!!
It is 2 days since the concert and I'm still buzzing, the memory will stay very clear and fresh in my memory. WHAT A NIGHT!!!!

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Robbie Williams - Let me entertain you

an update..........
Well its been one of those kinda weeks for me, I just got back from my specialist appointment (which I was not looking forward to at all) and things are looking really good with the leukemia, my blood counts are great which is a real bonus. Paul has decided to take me off one of my medications just to see if it makes a difference to my liver, since its playing up again (but not majorly which is good) I'm always happy to have some time off some of my meds cause that means less pills to pop, morning, noon and night. The only downfall to the whole visit was when I mentioned my headaches, Paul is so stumped at what to do, we done the whole head scan and eye test things so now hes decided to send me to a neurologist to see if they can find anything. We thought at first that it was a side effect from the medication but since we have played around with them, it doesn't seem to be the case at all so now we are taking it to the next step, I'm really hoping that this might help cause I'm so tired of having constant headaches.
Anyway on a nicer note, Craig and I had tee ball practice yesterday afternoon with the kids. I think finally they are starting to get the idea of the game and are actually now watching to see where to throw the ball instead of just throwing it in the air and just hoping it goes to where it should be. Craig and I did admittedly get a bit shitty yesterday when we have 3 boys in our team that are fair little shits that dont want to listen and don't want to learn, they think they know it all and its starting to stretch our patience. By the end of the hour practice, Craig had just about had enough from one of the boys so he thought it would be a good idea to speak to his mother, cause the thing is he's letting down the rest of his team when he doesn't want to play and sits down in the middle of the field in the middle of a game, so hopefully his mother would have spoken to him and he will have changed his tune for the game on saturday.
I still haven't had much luck on the job front but I'm not giving up, although it can be a bit discouraging when you get rejected so many times, I'm trying to stay nice and positive with the thought that there has GOT to be a job out there for me somewhere, I just have to find it!!
The big highlight of my year is coming up in two weeks today, yes you know what I'm talking about.......ROBBIE WILLIAMS!!!!!!!!!!!
I cant believe its only two weeks away...I'm so excited.
I will definitely be updating my journal when I get back from the concert, I don't know if anyone even reads this but I know I will want to tell anyone and everyone that will listen about my big date with Robbie.
I'll touch base again soon guys, so take care and be safe.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: the feelers-space

Labour weekend.........
Thank god its a long weekend this weekend, I feel so tired so it will be nice to not have to rush, I can sleep in and take my time throughout my day instead of constantly running by the time.
We are off to the AMP Show tomorrow which should be a good day, the kids are really looking forward to it, Sam is excited because he's old enough to go on the big rides, so I'm sure I will have to spend an hour or so lined up waiting for him to go on all the rides. Lets just hope its not as hot as it was last year.
I am having my nephew for the night on Saturday night which should be fun, I have been promising him for ages now so it feels good to keep my promise. Jesse is such a great kid, it will be good to spend some quality time with him.
Well I never heard back from the job in town that I applied for so I'm guessing that I didn't get the job, that really pisses me off when a business says they will contact you on a certain day to tell you weather you have got the job or not and they never call...grrrrrr it makes me so mad!!!! But I have applied for another job in town so I will keep my fingers crossed for that one, I have certainly learn't not to get my hopes up cause you feel so let down when you get the news or guess that you havent been successful.
We have our first tee ball training session today, it is certainly going to be an experience and a half for Craig and I, it will be a good test of our patience. Picture 13, 7 year olds all learning how to hit and catch a ball......you get the drift already dont ya....lol One word to describe this would have to be interesting.
I was glad to see that our team this year is called the Greenmeadow Aces, so our challenge for the season is to 'ace' at least one game. I will keep you updated on that one.
Well time to sign off and get organized to go to training and to pick up my co-coach Craig.
Take care everyone and be safe.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Savage Garden - Chained to you

I went for my first job interview..............
Well I finally did it, I went for my first interview, it was for assistant manager in a ladies shop in town, its a very expensive shop called Amies....so now I'm just waiting to hear back to see if I was lucky enough to get the job. I was quite pleased with the way the interview went, well I didnt walk out thinking 'I should have said that or I shouldnt have said that' so now I just have to wait and see.
I've had a cool week this week, spent heaps of time with some of my friends which has been so cool, I think I have drunken way to much coffee though...then again whats new for me. I dont drink so I NEED coffee.
Had some really cool news the other day, an online friend of mine Dave, whom recently got engaged, is bringing is lovely wife to be over here to kiwiland to get married!! I was so excited to hear the news, it is going to be so cool to meet him and Lisa and to show them around kiwiland. Its funny that he can find so many things about New Zealand so interesting and yet to me, I find myself rolling my eyes, I suppose I take it for granted since its here. I cant even remember the last time I went for a trek through our beautiful bush...then again when dave and lisa arrive I will definetely be doing that!!
I spoke to my online friend that has been going through the chemo treatment yesterday, he seems to be doing really well, its good to see that he has kept his spirits nice and high and is coping well with everything that is happening to his body. I really feel for him since I know how scary the whole chemo process can be. It feels so good to be there for someone, to help them through such an awful part of their life, I feel very blessed to have met this person, he is handling things like a real trooper and I'm very proud of him. I will keep you updated.
Well thats it from me, I will let you know how I get on with this job, as soon as I hear!!
Take care and be safe.

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Robbie Williams - Eternity

OMG OMG OMG OMG......
OMG I finally heard back from one of the many jobs that I have applied for....and it was one of the better ones, which has got to be a bonus. It was the one from Michael Hill Jewelers, I sooooooo know that I would love this job, working around all that beautiful gold!! (the one thing I cant help but love and want and buy!!)
So anyway this is my first ever job interview and I'm kinda really nervous, I dont know what to really expect, so I'm just gonna be myself as much as possible and maybe, just maybe I can fluke my way into it!!
So tomorrow I'm off into to town to go shopping to find something nice and respectable to wear, I have been told that I really should get a suit, but hey I dont do suits, so I will check out what town has to offer me. Thought I might get my nails done too since I bit them all off over the last couple of weeks...they wont look to nice when my hands will be the main focus when selling jewelery.
Another really great thing happened today, I wont say this persons name but I will say that I feel very lucky to have spent some good quality time chattin to this person.
Anyway to get to the point, this person has just found out that they have cancer and have to have chemotheropy.....he is feeling very much alone and very frightened by what will be happening to him. I was very blessed to able to talk to this person and maybe help him with all the questions that he has, and maybe take some of the weight of worry off his shoulders. I know too well how scary the whole cancer thing can be, and I know how important it is to have someone to turn to, even if it is a stranger.
One thing we did both say was that its so much easier to talk to someone who has actually been through cancer, because they really do know what you are feeling and they can relate on that level, don't get me wrong my family and friends were a huge support system to me but they really never understood what I meant, as with someone who has been through this does, so its nice for me to have finally found someone who relates to me as much as I relate to him. He goes into have his first round of Chemo tomorrow so I hope things go well for him, first time is always the hardest.....but I will be there if he needs me. He is certainly in my thoughts and like I said to him, I will send all my good healthy vibes over to him!!
Anyway just wanted to tell ya about the two cool events of my day....take care and be safe everyone xx

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: the mockers-forever tuesday morning

What a great week........
I have had a great week this week....Sam was away all week which was very hard for me since this was the first real time that we have been apart for more than a couple of days (apart from when I was sick). He went to stay with my sister Dale and her partner Kerry for the weekend. He had an absolute ball. There was 6 other kids to play with so he was totally loving it, Kerry done some great activities with them as well. Sam was so thrilled to tell me how he went eeling at the river (his first time ever) and how they caught a huge eel, I cant think of anything worse to do but being a typical 7 year old boy, he loved every second of it. They also had games of rugby, a family bbq and they still had to time to do lots of arty stuff. No wonder when it was time to come home he didnt want to come..how boring to have to come home to boring old mum and dad!! lol
Well i did manage to drag him home for a whole 2 and a half hours before he was whisked away from his Nana. He spent the weekend with her, they went to the pictures to see Cats and Dogs, went out for lunch and also had a spare bit of time for a spot of shopping...isnt it sad when your son has more of a social life than his parents...Im so jealous!! lol
I am happy to say that I have now got my lovely son back and once again hes bored already!!
We spent the day today at the park with friends of ours, Al and Jacqui and their kids Ryan, Taz and Zahn. We took the rugby ball and tee ball set and had a few good games with the kids. We spent a total of 3 hours having fun with the kids. I must admit it was great fun!! Craig is really badly sun burnt though, we didnt realize how hot it really got until we sat down and felt it, I think we were so busy having fun that we blocked it out or something, weird really when I stop and think about it now.
After going to the park we decided to have a BBQ dinner, which originally was going to be at our place but we ended up at Jo and Stu's, it turned out to be such a great day, all the kids enjoyed each others company and I dont even think i remember then arguing which is a first!
We got home and put the kids straight to bed, within 10 minutes they were both sound asleep, such a lovely sight for a parent, they look so beautiful and innocent. Notice how I said 'when they are asleep'!!!! lol
All in all I must admit that today has been such a great day socially (with friends and kids). Would be nice if all days could be as stress-free as today was, I suppose thats why we have to savor the ones that we do get cause it doesn't happen that often, I'm gonna try and change that though!
Tomorrow Craig and I are taking the boys to the beach so that they can collect shells so they can make their very own wind-chimes...thought I would try and do something creative with them, plus we are also going to decorate pine cones.
So anyway thats about all I have to jot down at this stage. Will let you know how I get on with the creative buzz that I'm going through.
Take care and be safe! (If anyone actually reads this!lol)

Current Mood: hot
Current Music: Heresay-Boogie Wonderland

How do you explain the events of this world to a child?
Well its that time again, Sam is on school holidays for two weeks, between the two boys they are either going to drive me nuts or this could be a great break.
I am going to try and do some cool stuff with the kids this holidays, like take them to the movies, the park, swimming, and to visit friends so that they have other kids to play with. Hopefully that will keep them happy and busy, which will mean less fights, which means I don't have to yell and scream......now lets just see if that actually happens, sounds good in theory, I will test it in reality.
Sam has be so upset and confused about the american tragedy......I have found it so hard to explain to him why someone would do this to so many innocent people....how do you rationalize something like this to a 7 year old? He has spent so many hours watching the news and waiting to see if there has been any new survivors, each day he asks if its possible for people to still be alive in there, I say yes cause you have to always believe in miracles...cause they do happen. If we cant give our children the hope and the belief in miracles, what do they really have? The whole idea of a perfect world and the belief that everyone should love each other and live in peace has gone for them now. I just hope that I can soon turn to my son and tell him that the evil people that did this , is caught and brought to justice.
Its hard to pick yourself up from such a big tragedy but as President George Bush said 'Just try and lead a normal life again' easier said than done for most people. I'm not even American, but I feel so much pain and sadness for everyone that was affected by this.
Anyway...On a happier note, I received a letter back from one of my job applications the other day, they said they would contact me as soon as they have finished looking over all the CV's, I know that doesn't sound much but to me that meant that i hadn't missed out and I am still in the running for the job.
I have also just send off another application for a job at a jewelery shop. I know I would love this job!! :)
Well thats about all I have to tell you for now, so take care and be safe. Until next time xx

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Stella- All it takes

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